times they are a changin'

UGH. Things have been very very hectic around here. I will hopefully have my camera back this weekend and I will have a little bit more time to update my blog! I actually miss having a place to write about things and to keep connected in a way. SO look for updates soon!

Missing you B

Brandon Wade Kilburn



May 4, 1990 ~ January 17, 2008
Today is the 2 year anniversary of Brandon's car accident. I am finding myself having a much harder time this year than I did last year. I know it is because I am already in such an emotional time myself. I miss him every hour, every minute and every second of every day. Love you B

This is how we spend OUR Friday nights!

Yes, that is my two year old son in high heels and a girly hat. We had quite the party going on at our house. :)

Riley in his bed!

Riley has successfully switched into a big bed! It is really just his crib with a side taken off and he has done really well. He doesn't cry or even get out of bed!! It has been about a week and a half that he has been in the bed. The next step is potty training, which should be fun. He has already shown a lot of interest in potty training and he goes on the potty every now and then. I can't believe how quikly he has grown up.

Calleigh's glasses!

Here are Miss Calleigh's new pretty pinkalicious glasses! She loves, loves, loves them!! It changed her whole face and she looks so grown up now :(

Updates on Miss Calleigh

Calleigh is a ball full of life and loves every minute of it! For a while now we have been watching her behaviors and her demeanor to rule out the possibility of ADHD. She has a very impulsive and hyperactive lifestyle and sometimes it can be very overwhelming (for her and everyone else), she has a very hard time controlling herself and her actions. So finally this past week she was diagnosed officially with ADHD. I have decided to try the medication route and see if that can help her function and be a productive part of society. I love her personality and her ....um.....head strong capabilities. However, it has gotten in the way of even everyday activities such as eating dinner or even just reading a (very) short story. Hopefully with this diagnosis she will be able to get the help she needs to focus and control herself. She is sleeping much better since being on her other medication, but that has also made her impulsivity and her hyperactivity much much more noticeable during the day!
Sometimes I wonder if I am making the right decision having her on these medications but if it can make her a healthy, happy little girl than I am willing to give it a go and try it out.
She also had her vision appointment this past week. I was exactly her age when I got my first pair of glasses and her father was young as well. I have noticed she has had a hard time now that she is attempting to write and interact that she seemed to be having a harder time seeing things farther away. So we went to have it checked out. Turns out she has an astigmatism in both eyes, but her right eye is much worse than her left eye. She basically cannot see out of her right eye because things are blurry so she ignores it and tries not to use that eye, it basically starts to become a 'lazy eye'. So she will have to wear glasses all the time to help her see better and to help re-train her right eye to see better. We went to the store to check out a few pair and she found a pink pair that she fell in love with! There was no way we were leaving without ordering those glasses. They are called smokey rose. She was very upset though when she realized she could not take the frames that were out on display with her. We had a bit of a meltdown but once the woman explained that they were going to be making a special pair just for her, Calleigh felt much better. She does ask almost every hour though when her glasses will be ready!

growing up so fast!

Riley has grown up so much! I have finally gotten around to taking the side off of his crib and making it a big boy bed! He is showing much more interest in potty training and in order for it to be successful he would need to be able to get out of bed if he needs to, so I am doing it in stages.
He has done really really well in his big boy bed! Went right to sleep without any noise and has stayed in bed without any problems. I hope I am not jinxing anything by being so excited about it!
I can't believe he has grown up so fast and is already in a big bed and getting ready to potty train and to get rid of the 'bapi'- his pacifier. Once he gets comfortable in his bed I will really get into the potty training and then once he is potty trained the bapi will disappear.

New year, new goals

Well the new year is officially here. Time for change, time for growth and time for new goals. Will I meet all of these goals, who knows. Will I try with all I have to meet these goals, absolutely.
My first goal is to continue to rediscover myself. I have learned a lot about myself over the past few months and I hope to nurture it and discover more.
Number two....is well a bit harder. I set this goal last year and needless to say I did not meet it with all that went on I kind of got side tracked (excuses, excuses). I want to lose 50 pounds by my birthday (August). I have been on the right track and I have lost a little bit of weight, but not nearly enough. I want to feel good about myself inside and out. I'm working on the inside, so now to start on the outside.
Number three. I want to get better about writing cards and Thank you notes. I really suck at it. I know this and I know I should be better at it. I have a lot to be thankful for with three kids and a lot of people that love them and want to share their love with them. I have started on the right track with this and I hope I can continue it throughout the year.
Number four. To keep the house at least picked up. Notice I do not say clean. I have three kids under the age of 7.....my house will not be completely clean for some time. I am going to try and keep things better organized and easier to just go through in ten minutes and quickly pick up and put stuff away. I am hoping to start with this goal on Monday when all three go back to school. Then I can go through and sort and organize and clean without them here and start the year off on the right foot.
Number five. To take a 'family' picture every month. I want to take a picture of at least the three kids once a month. Hopefully I can take one with me in it too, but I will settle for one of the three of them. I realized I take a lot of pictures of the kids, but I want something where I can really see how much they have grown over the year. Time goes by so fast that I want something to look back on and see the growth and the love throughout the year.

So there are my five goals for the year. I could have more or less, but I think five is a good number. I don't think that they are overly ambitious or under ambitious either. Here's to a better year and lots of hope.